The Power of Surrender: Reconnecting with Spirit and Yourself

There was a time when I was deeply connected to Spirit. As a young child, I lived in a state of joy, hope, and knowing—before the world told me otherwise. But at just four years old, I remember taking on my mother’s pain for the first time. That moment set off a pattern that lasted for decades.

I became the fixer. The one who carried the burdens of others, believing my value was in making things better for everyone else. And with every wound I absorbed, every piece of myself I gave away, I unknowingly built a wall.

The wall was supposed to protect me, but instead, it cut me off. Not just from others, but from myself. And most painfully, from Spirit.

The Weight of Control

For years, I lived inside that wall. I stayed in a 28-year marriage that brought me little joy, holding onto frustration, anger, and resentment. I tried to control everything I could, shrinking my world down to something I could manage—because control felt safe.

Until one night, when it all crumbled.

I remember standing alone and for the first time in my life, I looked up and said, “I don’t know what to do.” And I meant it.

That was the moment everything shifted.

If my life were a movie, this would be the part where the heavens opened, and light poured down on me. Because, in that moment, those were the words my spirit had been waiting years to hear. Those words cracked my walls, not with force, but with surrender.

And suddenly, I wasn’t leading anymore—I was being led.

The Power of Surrender

From that night forward, I stopped trying to control everything. I didn’t think about a month from now, or even a week from now. I simply woke up each day and followed the one step that was given to me.

Looking back, I see how divinely orchestrated it all was. I was getting ready to leave my marriage, but at the time, I didn’t even consciously know it. I was simply following the path Spirit laid out, step by step.

And despite my world crumbling, I had never felt more peaceful in my entire life.

Surrender is terrifying because it asks us to release the illusion of control. But here’s what I’ve learned—when we surrender, we don’t fall. We are caught. We are carried.

Surrender is not giving up. Giving up means being stuck, staying where you are.

Surrender is giving in; to seeing and doing things differently.

And we are led exactly where we are meant to go.

Choosing Surrender Every Day

That experience changed everything for me. Since then, I have never doubted my connection to Spirit. Some days the connection feels stronger than others, but I have never lost it. Because I now live in intentional surrender.

Every day, I choose to surrender. And every day, I am given only the next step. And thank God for that—because if I had seen the full picture, I might have been too overwhelmed to move forward.

Even now, when I face things that feel impossible—like writing a book when I didn’t consider myself a writer, I come back to surrender. And I watch as Spirit leads the way.

Surrender Is the Key

We all desire a deep connection with Spirit, with our true selves. And I truly believe that surrender is the key.

But it’s also one of the hardest things to do.

We want control. We want certainty. We want to see the whole plan laid out before us. But that’s not how Spirit works. Spirit meets us in the unknown. Spirit moves in the surrender.

So today, I invite you to ask yourself:

  Where am I still holding on too tightly?

  What am I afraid to surrender?

  What would it feel like to simply let go and trust the next step?

I promise you, surrender does not mean losing control. It means giving control back to the one who has been guiding you all along.

And when you do, you will find the peace, the joy, and the connection you have been longing for.

Because Spirit has never left you. It’s just been waiting for you to say, I don’t know what to do.

And in that moment, the path will reveal itself—one step at a time.

When we change the world changes.