The Part of Me I Hid Was the Part of Me That Needed Love

I allowed myself to feel unworthy…
because I knew unworthiness could still be loved.

If one of my children felt unworthy,
I would wrap them in love until they could see it… feel it… remember it.

But I did not do that for myself.

Instead, I hid her.

I covered her in perfection, in how I looked, how I lived, how everything appeared,
trying to outrun a feeling that only ever needed to be held.

And all along, she wasn’t asking to be fixed, she was asking to be loved.

So now, I sit with her.

I love her into safety.

And as she softens…
my nervous system softens.

I am no longer disrupted by what others do, think, or say.
Because I know something deeper now.

I am loved.
I am accepted.
I am seen… by me.

The Pattern Was Never Me

No one told me I was unworthy.

In fact, I was loved. I was special.

But my sensitivity…
my deep feeling nature…
created a response in my body that stayed.

And for years, I looked for evidence to match that feeling.

Not because it was true, but because that part of me had not yet been loved.

So, I gave.
I served.
I overextended.

Sometimes from love, but often to prove my worth.

I used service as a way to be seen, and as a way to avoid receiving.

But now I see…

When I give to fix myself,
it is not truth, it is protection.

And I no longer need protection from myself.

I Release the Need to Earn What I Already Am

I release the addiction to the future; the need to know and the fear of the unknown.

I surrender the need to figure it all out.

Because what I have suppressed is what has always been true.

Joy.

Joy is not something I earn.
It is not something I prove myself worthy of.

Joy is who I am.

The highest expression of love is joy, and I am that expression.

I no longer need to fix anyone to feel it.
I no longer need to earn it.

I am joy.
I am freedom.

I See Me

I breathe light into all parts of me, not just the ones I once believed were worthy,
but all of me.

My voice does not need permission.

It only needs to be heard by me… first.

I see now that
I am not here to be seen by others.

I am here to see myself.

I am my higher self.

The desire to be seen was never me, it was the patterns asking for love.

And now they have it.

Sacred Return

I release the pleaser.
I release the fixer.
I release the one who thought she had to hold it all together.

I return to the light.

And from here, I see the world as healed.

I trust that everyone is on their path.

I no longer need to control, fix, or carry.

Devotion

My little girl did not break me, she protected me.

She carried me.

And now… I carry her.

With love.
With gratitude.
With reverence.

The pattern of unworthiness…
was never who I am.

It was simply something waiting to be loved.

And now… I See Me.

Trusting Your Intuition

April 21, 2026 6-8pm | $50
Catalpa Wellness, Jefferson City

May 5, 2026 6-8pm | $50
Catalpa Wellness, Jefferson City

Your intuition has always been with you, it was never lost, perhaps just quieted.

In this experiential, body-based class, we’ll explore why we don’t trust ourselves and how outsourcing our decisions weakens our inner knowing. You’ll learn how to gently build self-trust through small, embodied choices and discover how sharing intuitive experiences strengthens confidence and creates a safe space for others to do the same.

Through guided meditation, body awareness, and reflection, you’ll connect with the wisdom that lives within you.

No experience necessary, just a willingness to listen.

Pay via Venmo to save your spot.

When we change the world changes.